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posted Tue, April 7, 2020

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7th Apr 2020, 9:27 PM

keiiii

Rebuilding the bond.

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8th Apr 2020, 1:48 PM

Marcel

I hope I'm not being redundant by repeatedly telling you how beautiful this comic is!

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8th Apr 2020, 2:53 PM

keiiii

Hehe, thank you! As long as you find the story beautiful, too, there's no such thing as being too redundant in this context!

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10th Apr 2020, 10:22 PM

melaredblu

It's interesting to see the differences in their internal dialog with this confrontation. If I'm interpreting these characters correctly, I think this kind of hits on what their respective biggest emotional hangups are when it comes to relationships with other people. Ethan is trying really hard to not let his feelings of betrayal lead him to give up on Lu, while Lu seems to have given up on himself. These both make sense to me--we've seen how hard Ethan tried to keep a relationship with his father despite how much pain it put him through. He isn't the kind who is quick to just let go, especially if he feels like there's something he can do to make things work. As for Lu, he used to be with somebody he clearly saw as being better than him, who he lost for reasons I don't think we know yet, but whatever the cause, I'd bet he blames himself to some degree. He really doesn't seem to think much of himself as a person, and having to own up to his mistakes is hard for somebody with a poor self-image. He seems to be moving toward emotional self-punishment, which is, um. Not great. Very worrying, actually.

I'm still not certain Ethan quite realizes what kind of feelings Lu has for him, either. I get the sense that he might not (understandable if so--Ethan has a tendency to be trapped inside his own mind). That just makes this situation all the more complicated.

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11th Apr 2020, 6:17 PM

keiiii

First of all, what an awesome, insightful comment! ❤︎

I think you're right about Ethan. 'Hold onto each other and keep trying' is really important to him. It goes both ways: if someone chooses not to care about him anymore, that is a big deal to him, the whole reason why his relationship with his mom became what it has become. (Though it hasn't been clear whether she actually stopped caring, Ethan believes she did.)

So even though Lushaka had been deceiving him... it was clearly not that Lu stopped caring. In addition to hoping to repair their relationship, I think Ethan is also sort of hoping Lu would change, at least a little, and become... more reluctant to resort to murder. Changing a person isn't easy though, especially a person who's hundreds of years old. We will see how the change (or the non-change) affects their relationship...

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11th Apr 2020, 7:53 PM

keiiii

As for Lu, it's interesting how even though he has a high opinion of *certain* things about himself (such as his survival/ fighting skills, or even his appearance), he's still very prone to blaming himself when something bad happens to a person he loves. I can think of some childhood experiences of his that may be relevant... how those experiences helped to shape what love means to him.

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